Well I'm here left with a lot to reflect on, lots of reflecting... I need to reflect on myself and acknowledge my strengths, weaknesses. Accepting myself for all that I am, mentally, physically and spiritually.
Pain is inevitable, but so is pleasure. Happiness and sadness. Sorrow and joy, etc, etc, etc. I have to learn from everything, or as a person I don't grow. Emotions are part of my conscience, a part of life, sometimes... you embrace it, sometimes it scare the complete shit out of you (this time emotionally). Just gotta learn from it, right? Right.
Now, we get to the good parts. I am now a sad, lonely bear. I loved you and I'm sorry you couldn't love me back. I wish I could have made you completely happy, and because of that I wasn't happy. I truly loved our time together and honestly it would have worked, for some time. It's better off this way, I think... (honestly I have no fucking clue, only time will tell.) With that being said, our time together is something I will look back on fondly.
Fuck me, there's too many I's in that last paragraph. Well that's what happens when you expressing one's thoughts.
Where does that leave me right now? Lost, in limbo, I'm standing in the middle of a frozen lake of doubt and regret, naked, wearing only fucking clogs on for shoes. What's that mean? I'm in a shitty situation, that will require a shit tonne of work. Not to mention, if I do fall... sorry did I say if, I meant when I do fall, lucky me, if I don't get up fast enough my ball freeze to the ice and keep me there. I then have to go through the agony of getting up and leaving a part of myself behind.
Well that's all folks.
I'm not going to link this to anybody, so I'm gonna let this be my little secret confessions. If you stumble across this well I guess you get to get a better look inside my head. It's a freakshow with a gong the size a fucking whaleshark, but hey the ticket was free, and you'll see nothing like it.
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